—— Written by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988), was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony. This was his speech to the graduating class of 2008. —– I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to [...]
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Posted: February 15, 2012 in .r.a.n.d.o.m.0
强烈的排斥感，忽然间，变淡了。 好像到了极点，就灰飞烟灭。 也许，自己的自尊心作祟。 时间，似乎真的能冲淡很多的事情。 看清了，继续往前走。 不回头。
时常提醒自己。 “羡慕不来。就做好自己该做的，必须做的，想要做的。” 还是难免有点不平衡。 多累人。 我想这就是人生。 没所谓公平不公平。
在对与错、要与不要之间，很多时候都很难判断和做选择。 试想想和一个人在一起7年半，已到谈婚论嫁的阶段。 忽然发现，他/她，不是对的人。 该分或不分，放手或不放手，痛苦挣扎着。 什么是对，什么是错，当事人未必最清楚。 有时，选择逃避、封闭自己。 有时，不确定自己到底要的是什么。 有时，不知该如何面对。 我想，这就是人生吧。 “这是个马戏团一样的世界，一切都是装假的。不要被外表骗了，所谓的现实经常只有一个。” — 村上春树
有一阵子了。 心理上的不平衡。 不知不觉地把自己和她们相比，当知道的越多。 因为我没有，而从中贬低自己。 不知不觉地，自信心被降到最低点。 当一开始时，我已缺乏自信。 “很多事是羡慕不来的”、“人比人气死人”、“。。。” 我时常提醒自己。 但也时常，感性胜过理性。 强颜欢笑。 想做的很多事，都提不起劲。 再下去，可能心理医生要向我挥手了。 好累哦。 好想躲起来，什么都听不到、看不到、不知道。 我也不想这样。 我，到底要什么呢？
– Jap Intermediate 1′s mid-term test! – Finally it’s over! Hopefully I’ll pass! *prays hard* – BBs’ Girls’ Day Out had finally been carried out with much success (even though the day’s super rainy to begin with)! – Brunch @ Hatched (Evans Lodge) – Shopping! – High-tea @ Arteastiq (Marx, Mandarin Gallery) – More shopping! [...]
Not over as in ‘cos I’ve already moved on. But ‘cos the whole story has been placed with an abrupt invisible full-stop to it, without any party having to mention anything. Initially was bewilderment, then realised my suspicions from some time back had been proven right, then disappointment, felt like a fool, and lastly sadness. [...]
What is ‘forever’? The world now doesn’t allow ‘forever’ to exist anymore. “I promise to love you and take care of you forever.” Promises are made to be broken in today’s society, sad to say. What is ‘marriage’? It used to be paired with ‘forever’. Nowadays, it’s linked with ‘divorce’ for most of the time. [...]
